I feel worried about my furture with him, communicating is an problem to us too, sometimes i will vouce out whenever i don't agree with him on certain matter, i don't like he keep comparing my family and him, both sre important to mi, what he is doing is want mi to choose either one. Long ago we already say that even of new year got to wash his van, dye hair for him. But we did not fix the time and even i ask him the night bve4 that when i wanna go over i will call him n let him know. The whole morning i was helping out with mummy and ah ma. SO i intend to meet him ard 3 plus but he juz angry with the time that was too late. But to him if is too late, y cant he call and ask whether i wanna go over already. I admit i didn't tell him the time that i plan to go over. But y he muz say that "I know you are helping your mummy and the rest hands and legs are broken so you continue to be your good gal and help your mummy" I was really hurting that what i do was not becos no one helping out, as daughter i find that i had my need to help out even all of them are at home. So what! I help out means i side my family more than U??? Seriously told you be4 that i am more to family. Cos i cant get a really secure from you, I know that you dun earn much, you also try to get along with my family, as i had told you be4 that i'm family oriented person. You also try to go by my way. but if you decide to go by my way, PLS DON'T MENTION TO ME THAT YOU ALWAYS GO BY MY WAY THIS AND THAT" this make me feel that what you do was so unwilling and you always say that "As long as you are happy i"m ok with it" But i cant feel that you are happy with any decision i make. When we met some problem and you will just leak out something that you wasn't like it. What i do for you, even can make me go here and there i ok with it, as long as you feel good i'm ok with it, but till nw did you really help me out most of the time??? I ask you long ago to find out more about wedding matter since last year. I been planning, i even tell you that we will do buffet and soleminzation together, you agree with mi too. i din step more into was that you were ask to go for course and you told me to do it after your new sssigment hd decide. So after that i start to prepare all this, the flat matter come into my plan. Which problem start.....I'm more enxious than you.But thru i thinking of my wedding, whenever ask you how he wanna do, he will say later then discuss or no reply from you. You think i can wait without an answer from you.
