Everyday my mind was asking myself whether how will my life to be in a few years time, now I had a lot of thing in my mind but I cant do it, married need $$, but as my income how much can save in order to get married, he don’t much too, after paying off his vehicle installment and miscellaneous, how much n how long can we save to our target. Want to have my own house but where to get loan for renovation. Will I get a good life after married to him? I really scare he will not contribute to the family and I scare that he will not be a responsible husband not as in having affairs but is towards to will he take care of his family, care for his family, work hard for his family and be more open minded person, I really really hate about is that he look down on himself, and this will lead to a lot of unwanted problem, an example: my cousin who was in pri 6 he was lazy to do homework, I find that kids are like that, I think most of the people are like my cousin before, whenever he went over his place he will get scold of not doing homework, he find that he is the one who cause him get scold and he thinking was y he every time come he will get scold. I find it v.fan I dun like it. I really hate it, He loves my auntie baby a lot, but he never plays with her often and I can find that he wan to play with her more in order baby won't be strangers towards him but he never really put in efforts on it. I find that in future even for our baby he will be like that too. He don’t like my grandma they all nag to him saying about married, house matter, for mi I also feel trouble that keep hearing all this but what to do, they are elderly and they care that why they will keep asking, so he avoid coming my place and my auntie place. I feel that I feel miserable. How to make him change his thinking concept??? Am I asking too much?? Marriage to me now was like a cup of water pour on it and now was so blur which I do not know what to do next in my life.
