Friday, September 16, 2005;
Hate It....Y i cant voice out my view......Poping out my thoughts.... In e end i get involved.... i should have make clear things myself long ago...always tell myself dun care so much abt *** i care so much n always try my best to do wat i shd do....But i get nothing and seem like wat i do doesnt show anything....whereas *** simply do something which will be an issue....I really really feel pain... Sometimes i feel tt i not generous enough or i'm juz jealous...but if i would be jealous long long ago i will never tot of doing all tis....even ask mi izzit i not happy as being compare or scold by her....ealry on u r so obvious tt u r compare, *** has make mistake so i will be "in direct" get involved in.... No Matter wat or where i will be drag into e issue....whenever tot of tis i will feel i'm juz nobody...trying ways to think/do for them...MAybe tis will make mi turn into a more independent person, i dun need help n will do everything on my own effort n energy...i will continue to do my part... ONLY TIS TIME...i feel tt only he will only stand by mi....& my close FrenS.....Nobody else....!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
Sad!!!
truly uS
3:33 AMY
